If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that the weather here along Lake Michigan has been the usual autumn type – cold and raining, cold but with some sun, and even a day that was pretty nice. I’d tell you that the weather keeps me homebound from here on out, due to my intolerance of cold/hot weather. I need a happy medium or the MS symptoms
come raging flare up on me causing a never-ending pile of symptoms, from numbness and tingling, to vision problems (more than I already have), and a list of other things, too lengthy to mention.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that tomorrow’s birthday comes with a variety of feelings. I still get that excited child, who loves birthday parties and trick-or-treating, feeling, which makes me excited, despite my aging body. These days, there is a birthday cake, if I bake it myself. I don’t get a lot of that trick-or-treating excitement, because these days, the kids go trick-or-treating on Sunday afternoon, in the light, with barely a costume much more than a painted face. I’d tell you how
ages years ago, we went trick-or-treating on Halloween night (after that birthday party), without the fear of being preyed upon. I’d tell you how we lived out in the boonies in the country, so my mother had to pile the three of us kids, plus any left-over party kids, and she would drive us from house to house, as the houses could be as much as half a mile apart. I’d tell you how when I was in elementary school, all the kids were dressed up, and in the afternoon we would parade down through the town, and back again, with parents lining both sides of the road (we didn’t have streets). Also, my mother would bake her famous chocolate frosted drops (a delicious chocolate cookie, with a topping of chocolate, and she would bring them to my class so that we could have that treat, before we paraded down into the town and back. All the teachers wanted her recipe. I tried to make them once and it was a horrible disaster. Now, baking cookies from a wheelchair is just too messy and too much work for the clean-up afterwards.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you how the next few days I get depressed, because that excited birthday response, is a big lead-up to a huge downfall, when my birthday is over the depression comes a calling, because that excitement I had as a child, and still feel as a post-middle-aged woman, always rushes in, because at best, the only real family I have anymore is two brothers and their wives, and the sons of my youngest brother’s wife. Then there is my other brother and his wife, along with a host of 13 cousins, many second-cousins, and even third-cousins, whom are growing up fast faster than I am growing old. My other brother never calls, emails or texts me, even when I initiate the contact between us. I’d tell you that the name ‘Van Benschoten’ in my branch of the family tree, will end when the three of us are gone, because they had no children of their own, as well as myself, who has never even been married – not to say that means I couldn’t have children, being unmarried, but vowed long ago that I would not have children because I knew I would most likely treat them the same way I was treated, and I don’t want to put that on the shoulders of my children. I would also tell you that a host of cousins, second and third cousins, will wish me a happy birthday on Facebook, and that makes me feel warm inside. Have a great week and I’ll have you over for coffee again next week!