Time Is Ageless

Fifty-six years ago today,
I got to have my first say,
Born too early to remember,
Supposed to be born in December.

They say that time heals all wounds,
I sit and wonder, will that be soon?
Only My Father’s the One who knows,
And so on and on, the number grows.

Year after year, I continue to yearn,
Year after year, I continue to learn.
She wasn’t supposed to treat me that way,
The pain I feel, I feel every day.

And so, Happy Birthday for today and more,
Tomorrow I know not what’s in store,
A mood that changes all through the year,
I’m going to be like her I fear.

But God is also having His say,
Today, on this, my special day,
He sends me all that He has, of love,
While looking down at me from above.

A Letter To My Self

Today, I see the hair that’s grey,
Today, I see a brand new day,
Today, I see an aching soul,
Today, I see within that soul.
Yesterday, came and went so fast,
Yesterday, is not meant to last,
Yesterday, I did not speak my mind,
Yesterday, the words, I could not find.
Today, I see all these things in my head,
Today, I think of all that I’ve read,
Today, I see myself so small,
Today, I see, I don’t have to go.

FEAR

I really feel like hell today,
It’s not going to go away,
I can try, and try, and try,
Might as well be asking the sky.

Spend so much time on my own,
Hard to believe that I’m fully grown,
There are those who will knock me down,
There are those who will make me frown.

This illness is something that’s hard to take,
Never knowing what each day will make,
Me hurt from tip to toe,
This illness will never let me go.

But there is one greater than I,
Makes me often gaze at the sky,
Asking why this is happening to me,
Wondering how tomorrow will be.

He who made me, gave me a gift of my own,
He who made me, the way I have grown,
Gotten much better at hearing Him say,
What to do to live life His way.