A Letter To My Self

Today, I see the hair that’s grey,
Today, I see a brand new day,
Today, I see an aching soul,
Today, I see within that soul.

Yesterday, came and went so fast,
Yesterday, is not meant to last,
Yesterday, I did not speak my mind,
Yesterday, the words, I could not find.

Today, I see all these things in my head,
Today, I think of all that I’ve read,
Today, I see myself so small,
Today, I see, I don’t have to go.

“Borderline Personality Disorder”

Because Mom wasn’t ever there,
When any leave, then they don’t care.
They’re going to leave me behind,
And never again will I find.

Find that one who helps me think,
These days, I don’t take a drink.
But if she’s gone for just a day,
Then gone she will forever stay.

My fears, they run so very deep,
Relationships are hard to keep.
But it really all is in my mind,
If I look hard, someday I’ll find.

That people don’t really stay away,
Our relationship is here to stay.
But deep inside, I still don’t fight,
The feeling that I’ve not been right.

Separation I cannot take,
My fear, I fear, I cannot fake.
Please come and let me know,
That you’ll not actually go.