The pain I carry in my heart
Was always there, from the start
Why can’t I get him outta my head
Fourteen years now, he’s been dead
I thought that death would be the end
I might see more around that bend
All this time I couldn’t see
How tough survival could really be
They are not telling me I can be free
To live my life as I should think it’d be
Prepare to get my ducks in a row
The day will come when I must go.
I can be taken care of when I’m there
Fewer mistakes that I don’t care
To live such life out of this place
I don’t think I can keep the pace
No friends around me any more
Can’t make my way to the grocery story
Having to rely on family
Is not the way my life should be
Keep only things that I can use
Without my problems to cause abuse
Good bye my friends, all whom I love
I’ll see you again in the realm above
Through The Clouds 