Ever Have One Of Those Days?

Ever had a day when you’re all stuck up in your head?
Ever had one of those days you remember nothing you’ve read?
Ever had one of those days you had nothing to do?
Ever had one of those days you have tons to do?

Today I sat here in my chair,
I did not go anywhere,
I could not read a book,
I just couldn’t find the hook.

Today I had nothing to eat,
Because I wouldn’t get out of my seat.
I could not read all that email,
The numbers made me want to wail.

Ever had a day when you want to stay abed?
Ever had a day when all thoughts have fled,
Ever had a day when everything’s numb?
Ever had a day when you need someone?

I am having all those days…

It Is Almost Over

Christmas came, but there were no presents, not even a phone call or two. I guess they were too busy to call me and wish me a merry Christmas. Tonight, my mind went racing back to a period of time in my life, when I had no one but a bottle of vodka.

Vodka became my companion, my friend, my family, my lover. I couldn’t exist without my vodka. I tried on more than one occasion to switch to beer, but then I just had more and more beers.

It took many years, to kick away that lover, and discover that I did have other people in my life, including my family. My family is reduced down to two siblings and their spouses, and approximately 13 cousins, second and third cousins.

Today, my father is gone, my mother is gone, and I am alone, with a sad little tree lit up in the corner of my living room.

I can hear what is really talking here . . . depression. It has come rushing back to be my constant companion now, and I am embracing it with open arms. Christmas is almost over, and the pain with decrease gradually, for the most part…

And It Makes Me Feel So Much Older

Why am I here? The daily prompt said that I’m going to write a post today, even if I don’t have a title or know what I’m going to write about to introduce myself, who I am and why I am here. Ok, so here goes…

I thought that Fifty was going to be hard,
Make me feel so much older.
But now it’s Fifty-five,
And it makes me feel so much older.

Five years ago seems a long time
It makes me feel so much older.
The gray in my hair I admit is mine,
And it makes me feel so much older.

My joints are in pain,
Making me feel so much older,
So I joined the gym,
And it makes me feel so much older.

Everyone there looks under thirty,
Making me feel so much older,
I tire easy and am quick to get cranky,
But thank God, I’m still getting older.