Woke up, thought things were ok,
The phone rang, upset my day.
Today I was to meet with someone,
The call came, things came undone.
My heart screams in a silent shout,
I do not want the things to come out,
I must keep them deep inside,
But sometimes it’s very hard to hide.
To hide the pain of being left alone,
I almost wish I hadn’t picked up the phone,
But that would not make things ok,
Just cause me a disrupted day.
I know that I am not to blame,
But I feel this way, just the same,
Feel that it’s because of me,
She did not want to really see.
My fear of abandonment is running wild,
But I thought it was under control,
Now the feelings have to stay inside,
The next two days I’ll have them to hide.
So sorry you were let down. Its so hard to control our thoughts when things don’t work out as we wished.
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I have to say that one of the most stress-inducing things in my life these days is when the phone rings from any of my family members. It almost always beings negativity and pain. I freeze when the phone rings and my heart races. Your words hit my soul as I feel them and know them well. I feel for you and am sending all the love and support I have to you! HUGS!!
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This is just soo apt and real
Wow
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Wow, that was quite an unexpected response for some reason. š
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